Yesterday, I was moving on from the drama Polina caused, and ready to find a new apartment. I had been emailing people all week. I had a great feeling I was going to find a new better apartment. I met Lauren for a fabulous day. We are both jobless, and decided we would try for the Hair lottery. We both had seen the show before but wanted to see it again. I was feeling confident, we would win the tickets, and Lauren’s name was called! The day was off to a great start. 

Right before the show was about to start the second act, I looked at my phone. I had a missed call from Polina. There was no time to check my voice mail before the show started again. I could not stop thinking about what she could be calling to tell me. The only thing I could think of was she changed her mind about the sublet again.  

As soon as the show was over, I could not check my voice mail fast enough. Polina had in fact changed her mind. Her company wanted her to leave in August for her Japan tour. She would need a sublet for August 15th. She said the apartment is 95% mine.  I was over joyed. This was the apartment and neighborhood I wanted, and finally everything was falling into place! My luck was turning around. I would soon have a place to live.

This morning I woke up to this email from Polina:

hi Pamela.

thanks for your message. I was thinking and thinking and thinking....and I've decided to keep apartment even if i leave on august 15th without subleting.

I'm sorry. The only reason of all this confusion, i was super confused myself. Thanks for understanding.


Needless to say I was pissed! This is such a roller coaster of emotion. I need a place to live and everything is about her. All I could think is the world does not rotate around you Polina!

I responded to her saying this:


You are putting me through a roller coaster of emotions. I got to be honest, this move is a HUGE deal for me, and your lack of consideration of going back and forth with your decision to sublet your apartment is just plain rude. If you decide to sublet your apartment please contact me, but ONLY then. I don't have time for this, as I NEED to find a place to live across the country.

Good luck-

I felt like I would not hear from her again, and I officially was moving on.  She emailed me apologizing saying she never thought about my emotions and about me in this situation. She emailed me ads for apartments and even suggested an apartment that is available in her building. I would consider that apartment but it’s a year lease. I am not read to commit to a year.

Keep your fingers crossed something else comes around!