I have been trying to keep this to myself but it’s eating me inside! I must confess. I have fallen off the wagon.  My healthy eating has gone to the waste side since my birthday. Well not completely to the waste side, but have been bad enough. I gained some weight, and am having the hardest time trying to get the weight off again. It’s killing me. I want to be social which is a huge problem since the only way to be social is by eating or drinking all of which have calories!

When I first lost the weight I was very disciplined. I could go out and have will power. I would not order food and drink water, or order something low cal. This will power is gone. Completely gone. I  do my best to eat healthy and go to the gym, but going out kills me. I don’t know how to get back to where I was, and be social.

The five pounds I gained is haunting me. HAUNTING ME! I really need to get back to eating healthy, not drinking as much, remembering water is your friend, and so is the gym. I need to stop being Ms. Social Queen and be Ms. Discipline Queen. I can do it. I have to do it if I want to get back to the small size I once was. It was hard work but when I get there I will maintain it this time. I can’t do this again. I must MUST maintain the weight loss this time. I will. I WILL. I need to get my head back in the game. 

Every week I wake up and say this is it, I am going to be good. I can’t live like this anymore. I want to be skinny again, but then a social outing comes and my day and soon my week are ruined.  I need to stay in the game all the time. Be social, but be good when out. I need to be GOOD! 

Oh will power! I miss you. I miss you so. Please come back to me. SOON.  Thank you in advance!